Sometimes I feel like this….

I have always liked Avril Lavigne and parts of this song have recently really hit me… not necessarily about a boy but about so many things is my life at the moment.

THINGS I’LL NEVER SAY
BY: AVRIL LAVIGNE

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I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And I'm searching for the words inside my head
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
If I could say what I wanna say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I wanna see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
(What is)What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
(I stutter)I stutter (I stumble)I stumble like I've got nothing to say
'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...
[Verbal Acoustics]
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Ladatadata ladatadatadadadatadada dadadadada
I guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never Say...........

Now don’t get me wrong… I am really loving life right now. I have a wonderful family, great friends, great house to live in, just to name a few, but there is just something that… feels like it’s missing and I can’t quite figure it out. I have my moments where I get really nervous that I don’t know what it is :s I guess it’s a mystery for now that I have to figure out and might as well try to make it an adventure. Guess that’s one of the great things about life. There is always some way to make things more enjoyable. :)

Well I’m off to bed. Goodnight all!
XOXOXO